Lot's of things have transpired since my last blog post. so let me try and fill in the gaps. I feel like I have done this before... Man I must be a real shitty blogger.
Damn, it's been 2 years since my last post. OK, so what happened in the last two years? Ohh yeah. We had a damn baby.
Here's a little back story. So Amanda has Trey, and I have Jack. We are a nice little family unit. She of course wants multiple more babies. I feel like if we could enter an all Darling team in a softball game she'd be happy.. But I didn't want more. I suppose I should fill you in on why.
At the time things were still very unbalanced with Jack's mother (we're much better now). But I felt like I needed to fight for every second with hm, and I had to argue my parenting decisions. And my life was lived under a microscope of "don't do that or she'll be mad". It was not easy. And in my head all I could think was; what if this one fails too? Can I really manage two ex wives with children each? It seemed daunting. And I was Terrified. Because every Sunday that I drop Jack off with his mother my heart breaks a little. I love him, and I want to be with him 24/7 (maybe not 24/7...). And of course I loved my wife, Amanda is 100% my better half and she makes my life have more meaning. So why would I ever think it would end right? Well, I didn't marry the first wife thinking that would end, but it did. to sum up, I was scared. And I didn't want to bring any other children into it. We had two beautiful boys and that was good for me.
IT NEARLY ENDED THE MARRIAGE WITHIN TWO MONTHS OF US BEING MARRIED. We fought, maybe "fought" isn't the right word. neither of us said anything mean to each other, neither of us were angry with the other. we just found out that we had very different ideas on how many kids we'd have. She was broken to tears.. And of course I can't stand that. So we ended the discussion like this "ok, ok, look I'm scared. I wont Say NO forever. But I am saying I cant now. help me to not be scared and we can talk about it again in the future" She agreed. Maybe reluctantly, but she agreed. And we went on our way.
Flash forward just one god damn month. it's about 3am. I am rustled awake by Amanda who says this to me "I took a test". Now remember, it's 3 in the morning, I am not fully awake. my response was something to the effect of "... it's 3 am... I don't care." She looked me dead in the eyes and said "No... I took a test" And she made that face that people make that tells you all the other details you need to know. So I shot up and was like "WHAT". Now, I knew that I wanted to be able to stay in the house and I knew that I wanted to still be married to her, so I had to make my next move very carefully. I hugged her, and said "I love you". It was the right move right? cute, right?
The next morning, the other Chris emerged. The "WHAT THE F HAPPENED?? Chris. he was less fun to deal with. But at the end of the day we were having a baby. there was no decisions to be made.. it was just.. "get ready".
9 months later Sophie Faye arrived.
So now we are a family of 5. And you know what? I wouldn't have it any other way. Sophie has made us all better. I mean, she has made me more stressed out because she is a little crazy. But I love her...
We are a happy little family.
So the "What else have I been up to in the last 2 years" is quite simple, running around after these kids. Chasing Sophie through the house, New Job, Trey's basketball game, taking dog food out of Sophie's mouth, Trey's football game, Jack's soccer game, Trey's soccer game, Taking Sophie to the hospital for a broken arm, Jack's Tee-Ball game, Chasing Sophie around, Trey's baseball game.
Drinking heavily.
Look for my next post in 2021!
Damn, it's been 2 years since my last post. OK, so what happened in the last two years? Ohh yeah. We had a damn baby.
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| She just got a "big girl bed" |
Here's a little back story. So Amanda has Trey, and I have Jack. We are a nice little family unit. She of course wants multiple more babies. I feel like if we could enter an all Darling team in a softball game she'd be happy.. But I didn't want more. I suppose I should fill you in on why.
At the time things were still very unbalanced with Jack's mother (we're much better now). But I felt like I needed to fight for every second with hm, and I had to argue my parenting decisions. And my life was lived under a microscope of "don't do that or she'll be mad". It was not easy. And in my head all I could think was; what if this one fails too? Can I really manage two ex wives with children each? It seemed daunting. And I was Terrified. Because every Sunday that I drop Jack off with his mother my heart breaks a little. I love him, and I want to be with him 24/7 (maybe not 24/7...). And of course I loved my wife, Amanda is 100% my better half and she makes my life have more meaning. So why would I ever think it would end right? Well, I didn't marry the first wife thinking that would end, but it did. to sum up, I was scared. And I didn't want to bring any other children into it. We had two beautiful boys and that was good for me.
IT NEARLY ENDED THE MARRIAGE WITHIN TWO MONTHS OF US BEING MARRIED. We fought, maybe "fought" isn't the right word. neither of us said anything mean to each other, neither of us were angry with the other. we just found out that we had very different ideas on how many kids we'd have. She was broken to tears.. And of course I can't stand that. So we ended the discussion like this "ok, ok, look I'm scared. I wont Say NO forever. But I am saying I cant now. help me to not be scared and we can talk about it again in the future" She agreed. Maybe reluctantly, but she agreed. And we went on our way.
Flash forward just one god damn month. it's about 3am. I am rustled awake by Amanda who says this to me "I took a test". Now remember, it's 3 in the morning, I am not fully awake. my response was something to the effect of "... it's 3 am... I don't care." She looked me dead in the eyes and said "No... I took a test" And she made that face that people make that tells you all the other details you need to know. So I shot up and was like "WHAT". Now, I knew that I wanted to be able to stay in the house and I knew that I wanted to still be married to her, so I had to make my next move very carefully. I hugged her, and said "I love you". It was the right move right? cute, right?
The next morning, the other Chris emerged. The "WHAT THE F HAPPENED?? Chris. he was less fun to deal with. But at the end of the day we were having a baby. there was no decisions to be made.. it was just.. "get ready".
9 months later Sophie Faye arrived.
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| I told her to look cute. She got it on one shot. |
So now we are a family of 5. And you know what? I wouldn't have it any other way. Sophie has made us all better. I mean, she has made me more stressed out because she is a little crazy. But I love her...
We are a happy little family.
So the "What else have I been up to in the last 2 years" is quite simple, running around after these kids. Chasing Sophie through the house, New Job, Trey's basketball game, taking dog food out of Sophie's mouth, Trey's football game, Jack's soccer game, Trey's soccer game, Taking Sophie to the hospital for a broken arm, Jack's Tee-Ball game, Chasing Sophie around, Trey's baseball game.
Drinking heavily.
Look for my next post in 2021!
